21 April 2009

Don't fall asleep dear

"I don't want to sleep tonight" her soft voice brushed my hair.

"Me too"

The light in the room hurt her eyes.

I turned off the light for her, and held her tight.

Soon the darkness embraced my mind numbing my senses. I fought hard to stay awake, but can't help from slipping into dreamland.

I found myself at an airport. Am I dreaming? Something was not right there, I need to come back to reality. To return to my beloved.

Felt like someone nudged my ribs.

"Hun, Did I fall asleep?"

"Yes dear, you snored."

We smiled.

" Could you wake me up after 3 songs?"

"Okay" I could hear sadness in her voice.

The next thing I know when I opened my eyes - it's already 8am. I regretted that I fell asleep.

Oh no! 6 more hours left, before we have to say goodbye to each other.

Right there and then I realised that my day and night would never be the same again without her by my side.
At the airport I wish I had misplaced my passport so that I can't board the flight home.
Looking back now I realise that I did leave something behind that day.
A piece of my heart.

11 April 2009

Just like heaven


The chilly velvet sun was setting fast. Cold wind blew hard on my face. Suddenly my phone rang.

"Are you there? Key I'll be there in 5 minutes" she hang up.

I frantically walked up and down the corridor tried to shake off the coldness. Then I remember, oh should find a mirror and checked my reflection, but Boots the pharmacy had just closed.

All I could find within that crucial moment was a glass panel and the reflection was nothing more than a scruffy looking middle-age guy staring back at me. The 13 hour-flight had completely worn him out. He got fine tremor in his hands, which could easily be a sign of hyperthyroidism or early Parkinsonism. Or was he just simply nervous?

I walked back to the main street.

Moments passed. Then I saw someone who looked familiar, roughly 50 metres away. She looked directly at me and seemed to have lock in her target. With remarkably steady and confident steps, she closed in fast, killing the distance between us without mercy.

Oh no. Here she comes. Ok you know what to say. You've rehearsed it. Now.. now say something.

With a blink of an eye she finally stood there right in front me.

My throat was as dry as sand. Nothing came out.

"Hi" she smiled.

I froze. Think I forgot to breath for a while.

Then all of sudden, she punched me in the shoulder.

With that everything turned all right.

We smiled.

It feels just like heaven.

07 April 2009

Baker @ 7

I have an old habit of whispering "The notion of being alone is no longer apply to me"on some mornings. The intonation may slightly differ though, which could sound either a statement or a question.

After all this time, I reckon destiny is a mystery in many ways. Is it a predetermined event by God that waiting to be discovered by us the mortal beings? Or do we really have to push ourselves in achieving what we really want in our hearts.

The answer to that is an anyone's guess. But for now I believe deep in my heart that every single action no matter how small.. is a destiny set in motion.


Tomorrow we'll meet, for the first time. Among the presence of hundreds of strangers. What shall I say to her. I guess there's only one way to find out. But before that could happen, first I will have to embark on a 10, 552 km journey to a land where I have never set my foot on (yeah you're right Mr Frodo, step aside sir).

And since I'm sure this one never happened to me before, tomorrow morning I'll whisper to myself something different.

04 April 2009

On a beautiful Saturday

Another on-call day.
Cardiac care unit.
16 patients.
4 new cases of heart attacks.

- among them is a man of 32 years of age. A smoker.

A man much younger than myself.
It made me think...

- How much time do I have?


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant;they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,you may become vain or bitter,

for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God,whatever you conceive Him to be.

And whatever your labors and aspirations,in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham,drudgery, and broken dreams,

it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.