"Houston, we got problem"

Osmivir / Tamiflu - 75mg twice a day

As per yesterday..


1266 cases

47 new cases. All local transmissions.

4 deaths - the latest being a 20 year old woman. She died at her prime.

On the other hand, it's my turn to be in charge of the H1N1 cases in this hospital.

This morning, one of my colleague who's handling H1N1 with me was rushed to the emergency department for cough and shortness of breath.


The enemy is a lot closer than I think before.

Right now I'm staring at them everyday. If anything gonna happen it's gonna be a bloody murder in first degree. It's going to be a point blank shot.


Come to think of it, I can't shake off this headache and mild fever since this morning.


Shit.

Beautiful imperfection

"My wife's been dead two years, Will. And when I think about her, those are the things I think about most. Little idiosyncrasies that only I knew about. Those made her my wife. And she had the goods on me too. Little things I do out of habit. People call these things imperfections Will. But the truth is they are not, and that's the beauty of it" - Good Will Hunting.

"And we get to choose who we're going to let into our weird little worlds. You're not perfect. And let me save you the suspense, this girl you met isn't either. The question is, whether or not you're perfect for each other. You can know everything in the world, but the only way you're findin' that one out is by giving it a shot" - GWH

"Baby, now we are going to check whether you are snoring or you are not, this is the proof. Let's go, follow me" - The angel I met on Baker Street.

***

Yasmin. Thank you.

The story teller

(illustration showing blood clot within brain tissue)

Yasmin Ahmad is admitted for an intracerebral haemorrhage. A not so friendly term for the brain I'm afraid. The bleeding inside the brain could easily displaced the brain tissue creating an oedema (swelling) which could give rise to increasing pressure within the rigid skull. A surgery usually neeed to be done to release some of that pressure. I'm sure the attending doctors are doing cerebral protection aka 'resting her brain from further insult' by keeping her on the ventilator.

I do not know her personally however as far as her work in concern, she's a talented film maker. Some of her stuff are purely classic, educating and catchy in many ways, especially the short ads for TV. A Malaysian story-teller. This is my favourite, when after watching it made me wanna pick up that phone and called my parents.



Yasmin, you get well my friend.

Honour

I don't believe in perfection. But I do want to believe in happiness. At this point of time that happiness seems so distant. All my life I have tried to do the right thing. I've failed before, yes. And I have made several mistakes in my life. I hope that one day I could find that happiness in this life. To have someone that could really like me for what I am, my strengths and my flaws. A woman that could cherish and honour me the way I honour and cherish her presence in my life. That's all I need, a person that I could really trust.

As for now I think the only thing I could do on my part now is to become a better me.

A better man.