31 May 2009

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I never thought that someone could ever touched my heart the way she does.

I never thought that I could ever be so madly be in love with someone.

This morning the sun disappears.

No light, no joy in the skies.

And i found my self fall again, harder than before.

And as i typed these words down.....

....numbness engulfed me....as i broke into tears.. i guess i forgot how fast these boys can flow.

3 comments:

Ida Hariati Hashim said...

Dear Doc,

It is OK to cry..yes, let your tears wash away your sadness. I pray everything would be fine with you. If you need someone to talk to, I am there for you..:)

Unknown said...

Dear Dr. Tranquility,

Let the catharsis explode and the grief to be expelled from you..Scream if you must in an open space..knock your head on the pillow(not the wall ok?)...let the tears flow and flood the room...but once you have let it all out, please go on the recovery road...because if not, you will be on the road to self-destruction... and I know you can do it, if you can will yourself to..

I wrote a post on imperfections..called Reconnections and Reflections in my unplugged blog and I said.."It is about loving our partner and realizing how imperfections are just perfect because we love and that each will be beautifully imperfect to the other in time to come and we love in spite of, despite.... We have a choice to see the beauty of imperfection of our partner or to accentuate the imperfections...and to let those divide us. If it is the latter, I don't think it is real love...

Fret not, Dr. Tranquility. Your time will come. Remember you are still young :-) and there is so much more to live for!!!

It's a beautiful day and a good run in the park, a swim or a hike would rejuvenate your whole being...



I used to be a terrible tragedy queen but now, in my 40's, I finally realize that life IS worth living even if there are hiccups along the way...

The sun will come shining through so may God bless you with wisdom and strength!

Take care and believe in yourself.

Warmest wishes and my prayers to you...

Pill Pusher said...

Dear Ida, WMS: Thank you so much for your concern & advice. I appreciate them very much. I'm so sorry because I'm unable to give a long reply compared to what you guys wrote. I need time to gather back pieces of my thought. Thank you.